i got new hobby.

my new hobby is crying.

start day with meeting subri then farah then rena at bustop then go interchange meet ina. then we take 359 then walk then farah went scared then she open satu surah ni at her fone. then subri was like jgn bukak ! then i went panic i ran to rena then farah oso scared. then we reach there change then help mr nasir. kinda stooopid if nid wear gloove to put a plaster. then after roadrace go ws eat at KFC then met elia with rena. she was shock with my height. then we talktalktalk. then i went home . cause they wanted to go ehub.

then went home. ibu was going to work. i ask for 3 dollars to cut fridge. and she said 'kau takle sabar ehk?' then things happen . i was beaten up. my head nearly got hit by a helmet she threw at me. im really scared of her. she dont understand me. i feel sad. i feel so controlled. i crycrycry. she called me bad words. she say that our house is like hell with me inside. she say she is stress thinking abt me. she wanted to commit suicide by jumping down. she wanted to take knife and stab herself infront of me. what would you do if you were in my shoes ? i cant stand this anymore. my heart is ripped . i confessed ! i slashed.

i met rena cause i wanted to run away. then blood was gushing down . the cut was deep then rena talk to me. i've been thinking about what rena val and elia say. they are right. then ibu msg me saying she is sorry and want forgiveness .

what ? hello ! when she was beating me i say sorry alot of times and she ignores me ! now she is asking for forgiveness. no way ! im so hurt ! i wanna die. im tired of crying.

then, the three cheered me up then went playground. decided to reply ibu saying that i go elia house and later sleeping at mama house. she called me and say
'asl nak tido rumah mama? nanti kau mengadu dekat mama kan ?!'
rena told me to fight back
i said 'adek taknak balek pasal ibu nanti marah adek teros nanti ibu bilang ayah nanti ayah marah adek !'
things happen. i cry again. but then hazwan aslam and syed came. i was happy when i saw a guitar. gosh i love them . thanks ppl who cared abt me including syed, he rocks . then went high took photos then videos then go home.

when i step into my house , i kinda remember what happen . so then i sat and i cry . i couldnt possibly forget abt this matter as i think im gonna remember it for life.

my heart is in pain.