i seriously need a crying shoulder.

i sick of my life. i wanna end it. first, i have problems with my friends.
yeah, ok diyana, i'll try change. but still i'll be ur friend as in helping friend. ok. now nas and naf. wats up with the starring part? ok easy solution: if ur not happy with me, call me or just tag ok?
next family. ayah kept saying he menyampah with me. so just now was at mama house i was watching tv while ira was playing laptop. then ayah kol.
ayah: biler nk balek?
shikin: huh? asl? kan kite balek besok?
ayah: besok ibu ngan ayah tk keje la
shikin: err...azira masok main laptop.
ayah: SUDAHLAH TK PAYA BALEK LA! KAU JGN MASOK RUMAH AYAH LAGI! *HANG UP*
when is this going to end? why am i filled with problems. i feel like crying every single moment. kenape ayah benci sangat dgn aku? i tried but its the same as my friendship problems, no one appriciate me. i feel like comiting suicide. right now, ayah dont want to talk to me even look at my face. why am i like this? im like a wilted flower with no sunshine and rain. ok ibu and ayah just quarel abt my outing going to kinabalu. ayah want to lepas tangan. i cant hold my tears.