im hating life.

my god, life is like a burden. i cant stand my father's behaviour. he ignores my question. i felt like crying everytime he ignores me. i have no mood for camp tomorrow. but on the brightside, i wont see my father. i hate him because he pilih kasih! my mum and i talked yesterday. i say, ibu, ayah pilih kasih ehk?, she didnt say a word. that means yes! if no at least she say no. i digged out the truth. im so sad. i hate him but i cry for him cause he dont like me. if only i was a switch child or something. i dun careif a family has lots of money as long the love me. now i realised how much love is more important than money. if only i can just realise what was my mistake i did that make my father dun love me. im really dissapointed in myself. therefore my enemy is me. look yeah, my bro everytime go play soccer automaticly, ayah will ask him 'kau adr duit tak?' and he will get like 5 or 10. if me going badminton, he just ignore me. and when i ask for money, he will ask ibu take 2 give me.

yeah fara. here's the survey.

1. What good or bad things happening around you now or few days ago?
problems, both friendsip and family

2. Live is a burden or happiness to you?
burden.

3. If you have a machine to rewind back the past, what would you want to back to..?
correct all the mistakes i have done

4.What is the most angry things that happened?
when someone piss me off .

5. Do you think your closest friends will betray you?
maybe yes , maybe no .

6. Who is the one on your enemy(s) list ?
me.

7. Which of those friends do you think is worth for you? & why ?.
i need to go counselling on this.

8. Have you done anything foolish because of a boy/girl?
i dont recall.

9. What is the things you wish for?
happy family no problems with friendship.

10. Which song brings you memories?
your call-secondhand serenade

11. If you have got into a trouble, who do you think will come and help you?
fie.

12. How is your dream boy/girl is like?
like fie.

13. Would you choose to rescue your stead or bestfriend when they are drowning?
i dont noe.

14. If there is a chance, who will you choose to spend your lifetime with ?
with my future husband.

15. Who is the one you choose to kill if there's only one chance?
myself.

16. From top to toe, which part do you like to change?
no idea.

17. Who is the one you wanna love most?
fie. and i already did.

18.Would you choose to be rich or happy?
happy !

19. Would you betray someone close to you just because of money?
no.

20. What is the thing that you wanna do the most?.
hug my family.

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